ABOUT

SUSAN’S STORY

Mystics are seldom born in convenient circumstances.

My life began in a Midwestern Mennonite and Amish farming community, where conformity was expected and questioning was discouraged.

By age 52, I had learned to connect with Source, channel healing energy, and help others transform their lives — yet I was still struggling to fully transform my own.

At that point, my children were grown, I was getting divorced, and I decided to pursue my dream of living in a different country. What I learned, beyond Spanish and how to live in Latin America, was that everywhere I went, I recreated the same life I had always lived.

My healing and spiritual journey had begun at 35, when traumatic memories buried in my subconscious since infancy had started to surface through dreams and flashbacks. The emotional impact was devastating, sparking a quest for healing that would span decades. I sought help through psychotherapy, bodywork, energy healing -- anything that might help me understand and heal the deep wounds of abuse that had shaped my life.

At the same time, I returned to my spiritual roots. As a teenager, I had read that the word "mystic" means someone who seeks a direct connection with God. I had thought, "That's me. I'm a mystic."

So confronted with emotional crisis, I sought comfort in reading the Bible and praying to Jesus.  Then I waited, listening until I began to hear answers. I felt the spirit passing through my body, raising the hair on my arms like a spiritual chill. That's how I learned to meditate.

By the time I moved to Panama at 52, I was already practiced at meditation. I had learned to connect to Source and pass energy through my hands. I had developed my ability to see and hear other times, places, and dimensions. I could help people heal emotional wounds, unexplained fears, and sometimes even physical illness. I was invited to lead my first meditation group, teaching others how to connect within while channeling the energy of pure Source.

Yet despite these spiritual gifts, I couldn't truly love myself. My childhood had left me struggling with chronic depression, grief, PTSD, and a profound lack of self-worth. Deep-seated beliefs told me I wasn't good enough, that I wasn't able or permitted to have money. These beliefs manifested in my external reality -- whenever I got money, I lost it again. Whenever I trusted someone else to make decisions for me, what they chose didn't work.

I tried making myself smaller, so I could live on as little money as possible. Living in Argentina's countryside in a tiny cabaña, I found I could exist in a small space, as long as I had space and natural beauty outside. But I always felt constricted, worried about basic expenses, and accumulated credit card debt just to visit my children in the U.S.

I also spent summers housesitting in Mexico. I lived in beautiful houses, and even a mansion with a cook who brought me meals. Living in bigger spaces surrounded by beauty suited my expansive energy field, but housesitting required constant movement.

That's when I realized the answer wasn't to make myself smaller, but bigger -- to earn enough money to support the life I wanted, not the life I was taught I could have.

Yet every attempt to create a business or sell my services failed. I felt like I was hitting an invisible wall.

Over the years, I had learned to use energy frequencies to reprogram my energy field with true and positive beliefs. I began speaking Light Language -- what some religions call "speaking in tongues." My teachers became entirely inner: guides, Ascended Masters, angels, and Star Beings who appeared as columns of white light.

They spoke to me in a unified voice -- in English when sharing information, and in Light Language when attuning the frequencies of my energy field. Light languages emerge from within and attune our energy bodies, bypassing the analytical mind. They taught me that energy is conscious, that we can direct it, and that consciousness itself is energy.

Through decades of practice, I learned to use energy for healing, guidance, and manifestation. Each time I followed the guidance received, it proved to be in my best interest. Countless energetic upgrades expanded my consciousness while revealing the unconscious programming blocking my progress in material life.

I made progress, but still feared recreating my old life with its money struggles.

The breakthrough came when I discovered that I was still angry about being unprotected as a child. Unconsciously, I wanted someone to rescue me and create a better life for me, the way my parents should have. I was resisting having to create it for myself.

Once I understood that, I felt how much happier I would be if, instead of waiting to be rescued, I created a life for myself that I didn't need to be rescued from.

Making that change was easy, once I realized what was holding me back.

Early in my healing journey, someone told me it would be lifelong. At first, this felt discouraging, even angering. Now I understand that the journey is more than healing -- it's continuous growth and expansion. When one wound heals or blockage clears, others often surface. With each step, we create more space for happiness. Ease, grace, abundance, success, love, and joy become our daily experiences.

Today, I help others recognize and transform their own invisible walls. I channel specific guidance about their life path and purpose, while combining energy healing with practical guidance from my own experience. By working with their Higher Self, guides, and Source, I support my clients in creating lives they don't need to be rescued from—lives that express their full potential and true nature. Their breakthroughs remind me daily that when we heal ourselves, we help heal the world.